Some women are born into a struggle of self-worth. I am one of those women who came barreling through the birth canal, unsure of her purpose, unsure of why she was being selected for this life on earth. I woke up in the womb, terrified of the dark. I asked God why he would abandon me. Where… Continue reading Contemplating the Belly: Before & During Pregnancy
I woke up to a work e-mail that was not the most pleasant.
It colored all my thoughts a glassy blend of dark blue-gray.
After I responded, I started to deal with the internal and bodily reactions of being provoked by conflict.
Knot in the stomach. Anger. Judgement. Interrogation. Fear.
In a flash, I witnessed a beautiful thought: God is bigger than this problem.
I repeated it again and smiled.
But, the bitter thoughts returned.
Me and Sarah McMullen, learning by being. Rockport, Mass. August 2015. photo by John McMullen edits and text by Amanda Kimmerly
when you can’t find words of your own, borrow. list out a string of them that don’t make sense. precious ocean tidal arc i beg i dream i beg again feel it on your tongue: language forming, symbols budding. sometimes there are thorns sharp as cold water. — the lulls the hums of vowels twisting eventually… Continue reading from 3/16/2015: channeled meditation for finding poems/words/songs
all my life, i have been driven by love illuminated and overthrown by its powerful gift i have been awakened by the kindness of strangers and pushed myself to give the peace of kindness when i craved only war i maintain desire full and luminescent i maintain health and prosperity and god’s grace all words are… Continue reading 3/12/2015: channeled meditation
When I see people near me—people that I know and love and work with—take progressive risk towards making their dreams full, their product or lives richer and focused and real (especially when they are in my field of interest…), it lights a furious fire in me! This fire is deeper than envy. Hotter than jealousy.… Continue reading Fire, Fire! (Power, Passion, Queen)