But, I still struggled with the day-to-day. Why did motherhood feel so hard to me? I thought I’d be a “natural” – a fun, creative, patient, caring, joyful, laughing mom. I didn’t realize how triggered I’d be by the smallest calamities: crying, whining, little hands pulling my hair or yanking off my glasses, food on the floor, an endlessly messy house. Maybe I just needed better systems. More structure?
Day two in a smokey house. Day one started with me turning on the heater. Not the best choice given that your AC system pulls air from the outside and pumps it in. I turned off the heater a couple hours later, realizing my mistake. The house grew smokier throughout the day. After dinner,… Continue reading Wildfires: A Comedy
12 days until I get married, and I’m crying like there’s been a death. I guess there has been — a month ago, a close friend: the mother of two people I care about so deeply, who feel like family from another life. Many lives. It’s all tied together — the joy of creating the new with the… Continue reading confessions from an almost-married woman.
OOOoh, Stress. How my life feels like an ode, worshiping the very ground you stomp on. How I’ve invited you in like the friend who says, “Let’s get drinks!” but never has money to pay the bill. (Okay, I don’t have friends like that). But IF I DID, YOU WOULD BE THAT KIND OF FRIEND.
For one week, I am going to step into an exercise of grace. I feel encouraged to take a full, 7-day week examining thoughts, as well as the words I let leave my mouth. Thoughts have power, and I want to make sure mine are in accordance to the higher law that I seek, so… Continue reading Grace Exercise: Mind Creates Matter. What do I want to matter?
dive for dreams or a slogan may topple you (trees are their roots and wind is wind) trust your heart if the seas catch fire (and live by love though the stars walk backward) honour the past but welcome the future (and dance your death away at the wedding) never mind a world with its… Continue reading dive for dreams… (e.e.)
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